Finally asked my guy what’s been going on between us (as in the status of our relationship) during a phone call. Of course I didn’t so much as it as I did ramble about how I just wanted to know partially because I’ve been nagging him to hang out with me so often and I was wondering if I even should be asking to see him so often since we haven’t been together that long, but I like spending time with him. He said that he thinks things like this should be discussed face to face, and we would discuss it when I sleep over next week.

Being the Queen of Awkward Timing, I of course brought up this question moments after he had said he was going to read a little and then head to bed, so he was getting off the phone with me. He made a joke about how I had promised to play a board game with him when I sleep over (though he won’t tell me which one…apparently he has…intentions…with this game) and we would have the talk before we played and I said I hoped neither of those would blow up in my face and threw in a that’s what she said. He laughed and told me to text him if I was bored. Then he called me his cuddle bug and said good night.

I reeeeeeeally hope I didn’t screw things up with us. I told him I don’t want to put any pressure on this whatsoever, I just wanted to know because I just need to know.

I think I’ve singly-handedly solved the education crisis in our country:

If we want kids to do better in math, we should stop pulling them out for assemblies about pizza during a math test.

That seriously happened while I was subbing today. The kids had a test and halfway through, we had to go downstairs for an assembly about Dominos doing a fundraiser with the school. Talk about putting instructional time to good use.

It makes me kind of sad that there’s so little funding for education that the school HAS to do all these fundraisers (and therefore the required assemblies) in order to keep any sort of enrichment or fund anything above the basics. This is our future! Isn’t it important to put money towards them?

Talk or not, I’m kind of feeling like a lucky girl right now.

So my guy cancelled plans on me for tomorrow last minute tonight because of work (I know, that doesn’t make me sound so lucky). I had a bad day to begin with, so I flipped out (over text, so…worded out?) and told him that if we need to have a conversation we need to just have it and get it over with because it’s shady as hell that he cancels on me as soon as I try to talk to him. Instead of getting mad at me for being dramatic or starting something, he just goes “Noooooo, babe, you’re over-thinking,” and explained that he found out that he needed to work probably twenty minutes before I texted him and he does want to see me and he’s disappointed too. Then he asked if anything else was wrong and I launched into the whole explanation of how I had a stressful work day and all of my school friends are taking summer classes and since I am not, I’m not getting invited to any social events and feel left out. Afterwards I apologized for complaining and his response was “I don’t mind. You need to stop with the ‘It’s okay, I’ll just push through this’ crap- people complain, I complain, you’re allowed to complain.” After I felt better, we changed the subject to try to figure out plans (hopefully Monday for Memorial Day?) and of course we talked about wanting to cuddle at that exact moment and he goes “I don’t care how cheesy this sounds, I really want to just hold you right now and tell you it’s all okay.”

So in two and a half months, he’s figured out that I over-think WAY too much, that I need to be given permission to feel okay with complaining to my guy and that cuddles make everything better. I don’t know, I just feel really lucky that he kind of gets me in that way and would rather take time to figure out what’s really bothering me (even if something he did is part of what’s bothering me) and give me a pep talk rather than get mad at me because I got upset with him. It sucks that we have to reschedule a date we were looking forward to, but I’m glad that this potentially really sucky situation at least led to us doing some good talking, and I feel reassured about our status as a couple.

So whenever anyone says “The Talk,” I know your minds go straight to the birds and the bees. But I hate to break it to you guys, that talk is kind of irrelevant at this point (Sorry mom!…who am I kidding, she don’t care!). And it’s irrelevant when it comes to my current guy because my whole rule of “I only do this, this and this with boyfriends,” kind of went right out the window with him. Not that I can be blamed, he’s gorgeous and his smooth moves are quite smooth. But I digress.

Me and my guy (still lacking a nickname, but whatever) have been seeing each other for just over two months now. We see each other about once a week, though the past two hang outs have been strictly business. He was actually the one to point that fact out when we went out on Monday night and he was the one to say we should get together for just a date, no funny business, this weekend (which of course, since I never trust two words a guy says to me, I’ll believe that one when I see it).

He usually texts me everyday. Today’s probably the first day he hasn’t texted me, but it’s been less than 24 hours since we’ve seen each other and he told me he was getting home from work at around 2:30 tonight, so I wasn’t expecting to hear from him. Typically we’ll start talking about our days and then it’ll get a little…heated and I spend the rest of the conversation praying there are no anatomical picture messages coming my way, whether they’re inspired by me or not (I think he learned his lesson with that one though). Still, a lot of our conversations will involve him pointing out that it’s cuddling weather or that he wishes he was holding me, etc, because he his a big bro’d out cheesefest.

Things, overall, are pretty nice between us. Even at our…business meetings…we usually end up cuddling for hours and talking about anything and everything. We do silly, cutesy things, he calls me his little cuddle bug and his love (permission to gag for everyone reading), and I’m super awkward with nicknames so I don’t call him much of anything except to point out that he’s a pretty tough looking guy but he’s so adorable when he calls me things like that. I’m not afraid to be myself around him- we’ll mess around and then he gets forty-five minutes of what I learned in whatever History Channel documentary I watched that day or a lecture on why he should read ‘The Hunger Games,’ and he seems genuinely interested in what I’m talking about.

Though there is lots of grown up shenanigans going on between us, I’d like to confidently say that I don’t think that’s all our relationship is about. Partially because I flat out asked him. Partially because he doesn’t act that way- he was the one to suggest a date this weekend, to talk about me coming over once his apartment’s done for movie nights, and the other night when he was ready for Round 2 and I was like “but I am le tired,” he didn’t push it but just pulled me into his arms for cuddles.

So that leads me to the talk I want to have. I think our relationship’s going well and progressing really healthily, which is an awesome change for me. I still have a few meltdowns (and an awesome best friend who puts up with my shit, but that’s beside the point) because I am an insecure weiner of a person, but that’s just me. However, I know that I’ll feel more secure once we have the talk and finally establish what we are- i.e. boyfriend and girlfriend.

I feel like for all intents and purposes, we are a couple. We hang out, we get all physical, we’re not seeing anyone else. I think he’d be pretty hurt if I went out with someone else or hooked up with someone else. He’s the one that took down his OkCupid profile like right around our second date. And on our first date, he was the one that asked how I would manage having a boyfriend with my crazy schedule, which I think I’ve done well with. We even discussed how to troubleshoot my crazy summer schedule- mostly by me staying over for the whole weekend or him dropping me off at work on weekday mornings.

Part of me feels like we should just drop the pretenses and just go with it- I don’t know how much more couple-y we can get before we’re official. But then part of me doesn’t want to push it- we’ve only been dating two months, why rush the commitment? We don’t need to officially have the titles right away when we know we only want to be with each other, right? Plus I don’t want to scare him off by pushing a commitment.

But I know I’ll feel more secured and settled in our relationship if we make things official. Plus I’m not used to waiting it out- in my first relationship, we kissed in the afternoon (my first kiss, just btw), and by evening we were official. I’m not used to this waiting game, even though I know this is how grown up dating works. I’m also scared that he’s going to pull what Skywalker pulled- we’re “exclusive” but we’re not “boyfriend and girlfriend.” What the hell does that even mean? I’d hate to find myself in that situation again.

Grown up dating is hard. Playing the waiting game is hard. But at the same time, I’m enjoying being with someone who’s so sweet and so much fun to be around and such a cheesefest. I know that I should just be happy with that, but I know I’ll feel a million times better when we finally have the talk (if it goes positively, that is). Guess I just have to wait it out.

Laying in bed, eating cottage cheese, drinking some crystal light lemonade and watchingTitanic.

I think my vagina just grew a vagina.

So tumblr people, as I said in my previous post, I don’t want things on here to get boring now that I am hitting it but not quitting it with my current guy. Don’t get me wrong, dick pics aside he’s wonderful, but I don’t think many people want to read blog posts about how great he is. I think his nickname for me is adorable (especially considering how cheesy it is and what a bro he is), but I don’t think other people want to hear about it.

So my question is what should I write about now? What do you, as my readers, want to hear me talk about? Of course it should be within the theme of dating, but I’m curious: What does the public want?

I’m trying not to let this blog get boring now that I’m in a semi-exclusiveish with the guy I’ve been dating. So let’s talk about some dating issues that have come up, namely dick pics.

Now, I’m not saying dick pics are a “problem” per se. But I wouldn’t say that they’re like, across the board acceptable. Here is my opinion on them: Everyone, men and women, everyone’s junk is weird looking. So a picture of just a wang, even if it’s a guy I’m really attracted to’s wang? Does nothing for me. At all. To quote Kenneth Parcell, “Well that just makes me perspire.”

So me and my guy are still in the really physical phase of our relationship. We have great conversations too, like about religion or that cartoon ‘Wacky Races’ from when we were kids, but a lot of our hanging out involves getting physical.
We were texting away the other night, and the conversation was getting sexual (to quote Jenna Marbles) and mid-conversation he didn’t respond for like ten minutes. I figured he got distracted or fell asleep since it was nighttime or something of that sort. All of a sudden my phone buzzes and I have a picture message from him.

Now, we’ve sent picture messages to each other, but they were of food- we both like to cook and eat, so if we cook or eat something particularly interesting, we send each other a picture. He sends me a picture of his first perfect omelet, I send him a picture of some cookies. I completely expected to open up the message and see like a cupcake or something. So I open it up and BAM! penis on my phone.

I honestly did not know how to react. I wasn’t angry or anything like that. I think more than anything I was surprised- it’s not like I was like “Hey baby, send me a picture of your junk,” so the picture was completely unsolicited. I honestly do not know what possessed him to send that picture.

Well, that’s not entirely true. He was nice enough to add a caption explaining that he took the picture while thinking about me, so I guess in his weird male brain this was his way of saying “I find you very attractive.” While I appreciate the sentiment, he could have just told me using words instead of visuals. I know that men are inherently visual creatures, but I’m a girl. Visuals do very little, if anything, for me. And if he did want to send me a visual, a picture of his abs or his pecs or his biceps would probably have done more for me than a picture of his junk.

And aside from being surprised at all of this, I honestly didn’t know how to respond. Like, what do you say to that? “The picture quality on the new iPhone’s great.” “That’s a really nice light fixture you’ve got there in the background.” “I work in a school so I really don’t feel okay having this on my phone.”

I like him a lot and he has so many amazing qualities, so this isn’t a dealbreaker by any means. And honestly, I’m really not mad about it- I just kind of wonder what goes through guy’s upstairs heads when they snap a picture of their boner (or flaccid wang, which I’ve heard of guys doing that but thankfully have not experienced) and send it off to a girl.

So, readers, does anyone have a good dick pic story? Why do you think guys send them?

I just started reading The Hunger Games. And by started reading I mean that within three days I’m halfway through the second book (since I did have to break from reading to work on finals). Poor Guy #1 (I still need a nickname for him!) had to go on a date with me right after I had finished the first book- he’s never even heard of them because apparently he lives under a rock, but he had to put up with me talking about it for half the night. Sign he’s a keeper?

Anyway, I’m seeing the movie this Thursday with my best friend and this is how I plan on walking into the theater. I’m pretty sure I’ll be incapacitated from all the feels to do this afterwards.

whatshouldwecallme:

So, PWB had been texting me for a few days to see where I had gone to- I hadn’t been responding to his texts since, as things are getting more serious with Guy #1, I don’t feel right getting with PWB anymore. Anyway, I finally figured I owed him an explanation, so I texted him saying I was seeing someone seriously and wouldn’t be available for hook ups anymore. His response:

“Gotcha. Well, I hope he’s a good guy. Keep me in mind if it doesn’t work out! ;) Haha, just kidding, good luck to you guys.”

I think that was a very classy response. Real gentlemanly of him. Good on you, PWB, good on you.